the 2009 christmas

No any special celebration for this yr xmas.BUT,i went genting w King,my neyney and friends b4 xmas eve.Y went b4 xmas eve bt not on xmas eve for countdown.? i wonder too!it doesnt matter as i enjoyed it.The queen was wondering y so many ppls went genting during xmas? Its so crowded!!Well i went to nilai to meet my king n neyney on 22 dec first.Seriosly,i dont really remember wat i did tht day.I just knw tht King whole night didnt sleep well.*sorry Bi*~.~ so do i. Y? ppl tht u love slp just beside u, should be sleep tight tight and have a sweeet dream ,right? BUT,no. Just because i slp beside him,make him whole day din sleep well. Because my king is a super duper pure bf! NEVER sleep w girl on a same bed before!^^ We woke up damn early the another morning.Well~~~i think i should thanks elvin for let me to stay his hs. Calson and his gf with us too! We went for nasi kandar for brunch. I didnt reali enjoyed the meal.Its nice but i just didnt have the appetite.So, i gave half of my rice to king. He ate until almost vomit..after tht, we heading to genting.I m here to talk about mr calson 's driving skill! reali tak boleh pakai.make me scream here n thr inside the car.Neyney and frens went casino. So wat i did in genting? i m underage to enter the casino,so king choose to accompany me. Theme park? HELL NO!We just jalan jalan here n thr~ help neyney to find out the entrance of the casino. This time when im w king. i found out something. He is totally different w previous! hmm... no about his look..still lengzai like usual~ still look like a pretty boy like usual. I mean the way he treated me was sooooooooooooooooooo different!Wat make him changed so much? I think its LOVE.The king care me so much, hold my hand hug me warm me up whenever we are.he was just so sweet to me ..* tq bi* The king was actually wanted to buy me a xmas gift. But i dont wan.because idont want him to spend so much.he is already the best gift for me.I was just like a queen for him tht few days.The second day which is xmas eve.Calson sent her girl back to midvalley.So king n me took public transport to pavilian to meet w ney ney and frens.The first time! *wink* Even we sweat alots.still, we hug each other and stick togeter.We went for a movie. so called avatar.The next day, i went back hometown w ney ney and king. nothing much to share.cz nothing much can do at my hometown. ops yea. King 's hair got a very nice smeell..no matter wat brand of shampoo he used, still got the nice smell. his hair still smell good even he sweat. I luv the smell so much. We said tht was shampoo+baby+s smell.and now, im at malacca to do my paper on tomorrow. I felt so sad yesteday. i stick w him for the past few days and now we gonna seperate. I think he miss me badly now. ME too! ^^ So i decide to back to my hometown again after my paper. because he is still there. I think he will be happy to c me again. Tooo much sweet memories between us. im not going to share all tht out. *privacy* hahaha

Last but not least..Im lucky to have Mr J a.k.a. KING! Finally i can show all the peoples out thr tht my decision is right! We just love each other so damn much.He is unique and im lucky.thanks for everything bi.



xoxo.

THE DECEMBER

Its December now.Im going to say BYE to the awesome 2009 and say HI to the coming 2010! im looking forward for 2010. Lots of drama had happened in 2009.Yet, something memorable happened too. It coloured up my life and make my 2009 meaningful. Dec now, means Xmas is coming!! my Fav but Im having the Fucking final exam recently.EXAM? so what? No care No care...i still want to celebrate my Xmas so much! I wish to celebrate this meaningful day w my Love 1.but.seems like its not so possible.I supposed was on my lovely comfortable bed w my huge bear bear and my pillow.But im still awake here.Because i just finished a nice pillow talk w my dearest roomie.Both of us were actually damn sleepy.erm..Maybe she was just too excited to pillow talk to me. We talked for 2 hours..until 6 in the morning.She was on her bed sleeping like a pig w her daughter zhu chang fun right now.So shuang! I have to prepare for tomoro paper.The Organizational behavior. i have no idea w this subject!It's all about BULLSHIT and NONSENSE. So,i choose to blogging abit.to release my stress. AND my dearest darling said i had been long time din update my blog. Nothing much happened recently. and...im still alive!Abit homesick this few days. I miss my cutie dardi,lovely marmi..and last but not least..my little darling girl celstine! But i can meet w them on this SAT after my paper! means.tomoro afternoon. I think they miss me lots too! im kinda emo recently. Peps may say im pattern pattern.this and tht~so and so. But they dont know the real me.Its okie,nvm. I keep it into deep of my heart and wont let any of u know wat m i thinkin. This post is damn..................random.Btw,Merry Xmas to my Sakai Roomie. I know u r reading my blog! *wink* ops.....And also Happy 2010 to u! u know u love me XOXO.



Q.sharon

依然

虽然现在保护我的照顾我的已经不是你
虽然逗我开心和我闹脾气的已经不是你
虽然很多事情都不同了
虽然我都让自己忙得没有空想起你这个人
虽然别人都觉得我和你一点关系也没有了
很多虽然
但是我依然想念你
但是你依然很重要
但是你的一言一语还是很轻易的逗得我笑得很开心
但是睡前我还是习惯性的想着你来入睡
原来别人都代替不了你
原来时间的长短重来都不会是个问题
原来我已经踏的很深
原来我只在意你的喜怒哀乐
原来我已经无可救药

Useless People Like This

I m totally out of idea to find a suitable word to describe a people like u! Useless and coward enough! Ugly enough no matter inner or outlook! The main POINT is..u are funny! because u try again n again to drive the Queen crazy..to make the Queen 's blood pressure increase to the max. So, im wondering ..y ur mom dont go for abortion surgery when she got u. I think she must be damn fking regret tht she delivered u! Try to imagine a guy w 20++ yr old guy w a 4 yr old kid 's eq n iq! He LOVES to order ppl to do thing for him! but he has no idea tht he is just a SOHAI , not a king! y we nid to do it for him...As a no manners ppl like him....yea ! he has a no manners sista toooo!!!ONLY 8 yrs old ! BUT with a damn fking rude attitude. The queen dont like them AT ALL! i just hate the whole family! a big big gap~~ if compare w my family..i wan to hit them so much evtime i c them.. hey~ ppl....the hell is waiting for u ppl~ Dont waste the o2.....cz i Dont wish to breath the same air w u. i rather die!!!!!imagine it...how much i hate those fellow..running out of word to describe my anger..im here ~~~ to spread a information....ppl who are ppl's dardi or marmi....pls pay more attention to ur children. Just in case ur children bcm a uselesss ppl like them.. if u dun know how to teach them.....pls~~~~ dont try to pregnant ~ tq...

千言万语

说真的
我对你非常失望
为什么就不读下去
一直在浪费时间
从你的语气
我知道你没有丝毫后悔
我更失望
貌似不管我怎么劝我怎么说
你还是会做一样的决定吧
我的心情的确很矛盾
因为我找不到一个去支持你决定的原因
我能接受你多么的少爷
可是很抱歉
你这个决定貌似有点玩大了
天啊~
我又平衡不了~
救命

TAG

一箭刺爆你的头
游戏规则回答下列问题。
贴到自己的网志。
写完后，自己加一个问题。
然后传给10个人。
可以点点过的人。
被你点到的人你要去跟他说“我点到你了”。
写完后去跟点到你的人说“我写完了”。
不可以不写哦！不写幸福就会跑掉哦！

我的大名 -> sharon
我的生日 -> 3/10/1989
谁传给你的 ->yee boon
说出5个好朋友 -> yiting,shorty,venus,wenli,yeeeee boon
生日想要得到什么礼物 -> 什么都要都可以吗？
近期开心的是 -> 某人的热情
近期压力大的是 -> 开学了
未来想做什么 -> 每天都吃喝玩乐
有没有喜欢的人 -> 有
同学会要回去找老师吗 -> 不会做这样的傻事
跟谁出去最幸福 -> 某人和朋友
如果你的两个好友吵架了 -> 不懂哦
跟情人出去最想去哪 -> 哪里都可以
圣诞节要做啥 -> 想过个难忘的圣诞
最想跟谁过圣诞节 -> 某某
有没有起床气 -> 有，常常
有几个兄弟姐妹 -> 4
最喜欢的一首歌（女生的）-> 7 things
最喜欢的一首歌（男生的）-> 不懂勒
喜欢什么颜色 -> 彩虹色
上厕所会不会先冲水 -》不会
爱不爱我 -> 当然
喜欢男生还是女生 -> 都可以
最想大声说什么 -> 我不想生病
半夜敢不敢自己上厕所 -> 我半夜不上厕所
上厕所会不会脱裤裤 -> 当然
谁很欠打 -> 我看不爽的人
现在很迷什么 -> facebook
睡相很差 -> 是吧
现在的时间 -> 3点27分～凌晨
是否痛恨传给你点卷的人 -> 哪里舍得哦
体重多少 -> 4４kg
今天天气 -> 晴
你怀孕了吗 -> 没有
你若中乐透最想做什么 -> 吃喝玩乐去
大学生一定要玩的活动 -> 玩完全部想玩的
如果能为彩虹添加一种颜色，你选 -> 黑色
如果能为彩虹去掉一种颜色，你选 -> 殿
在生命中最重要的东西 -> 电话
在生命中最重要的人物 -> 家人
最宝贝的人是谁 -> 某人
今天为自己许的3 hope ->默默的许了
有一天，走在街上看见一傻佬在路旁撒尿，你会…… -> 我不会怎样

饿不饿 ->不饿
想家吗？->还好

名单：
1.yiting yap
2.
3.

08-10-09 until 2-11-09

很久没有blogging了
我的达令投诉我了
所以我要一次过一口气update一下
请耐心的看
话说上个月的8号
女王正式考完final
第一件事就是上kl狂欢去
虽然不是第一次下club
不过这次感觉不同
birthday girl肯定被灌醉拉
这不用说
我超丢脸的坐在厕所前面
完全走不到直线
想象下～我是多么醉
还好那晚有人照顾我
所以女王我很快就没事啦
可是我家shorty醉得不成人形
为了保持他的形象
我还是不多说！
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
9-10-2009
我一直在想为什么不是10-10~
但是某人说～9-10也不错
这个某人就是那个在我最失落的时候
无时无刻守着我的人
在我最低落的时候
我的世界就只剩下他
是他把我从谷底拉起拉
我很庆幸我能拥有他
我曾经和达令说过
我不想再交个香蕉男朋友
偏偏他就是个蕉
没办法
或说本人很女王很霸道很我行我素
可是当女王遇到king~
很像就不是这么一回事了～
我家王上少爷脾气不是开玩笑的
连我也要低声下气的逗他
当然他还是有可爱的时候～
＊达令～他可爱没？*
虽然他是个cc boy
连达令也问我说
s ，你为什么都没 发脾气
我说
我怎么舍得发脾气
我从女王沦落成丫环～
可悲到。。。。
不烟不粗话斯斯文文誓要变成淑女！
问你怕没有！不过以上一切是在我家王上面前
其他人～还是不要惹我
因为我还是会。。。。。。
哈哈哈哈啊哈哈哈哈哈
从一开始的我犹豫我不安
到现在他也开始付出了
所以说～我的付出我的改变是有用的～
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27-10-2009
这个星期开学了~
我也消失了一个星期～
消失的很低调
玩够了～
是时候要把心放在读书了

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3-11-2009

这一天
会有惊喜～
亲爱的~见到我时，快说你很感动吧～～

xoxo

the quuuuuueen 's big day

say heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
its 3 oct 2000000009
and its the queen's big day
well~
my beloved roomie wait me home ..
and prepare a little silly surprise for me ....
even thr's just a bday card with a slice of cake
BUT i appreaciate it ALOTS..
heart my darling T
besides that
i have my exam on 3 oct ..
sad case..
no study mood at all.....................................
birthday mood whole day long..
night time i get another surprise frm a ppl who have HEART
he bought me a DKNY perfume
so nice ...
but i m curious abt...
hw cm i cant c him takes anythings in his hand when he enters the car?
where he hides the present?
-------------------------
i have nothing much to say about my bday
since this is just a non -officially celebration
so stay tuned for the officially celebration which is on 8oct2009
last but not least
thanks for alllllll the wishes
of my dearest 1
of my babies
of my darlings
of my honey
of my buddies
of my jimui
of my heng dai
of my papa mama gor gor jie jie
and sooooo on
i keep it deep inside of my heart
the queen love u all
xoxo

我想知道

其实我没有很惊讶
因为她的手段我很了
其实我并不是坚强
我只想保护自己
其实我不是不难过
只是难过得哭不出来
我把所有的思绪都往心里吞
好累好累
一点笑容也挤不出来了
一开始我就随着你
决定都由你做
结束了我连反驳的机会也没有
只是没想到为了要我退出
你宁愿选择用谎言来让我恨你
我想知道她是怎么做到的
竟然能让你这样的对我
我想知道她让你痴心是什么？
我想知道她让你疯狂是什么？
我想知道她哪里比我好很多？
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
可是我在你心里没她多
我除了不知所措
我还能怎么样？
我知道我 应该要怎样
只是我办不了

TAG^^

1) 大名: S a.k.a sharon
2）生日: 10月3日
3）谁传给你的: bq yiting
4）生日想拿到什么礼物: cash
5）最近压力大的事: 压力到我想不到是什么
6）想做的事: clubbing!!!!!!
7）有没有喜欢的人:♥有啦当然~我不是没有感情的动物
8）跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: 朋友！！！
9)如果你的好朋友吵架了,你会怎么做: 安慰人
10)最想和别人去那里:不懂

11)圣诞节想做什么: 去人多的地方和人家挤
12)最想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: 朋友吧
13)最近在做什么: 吃喝玩乐~可是考试要到了！哈~（死定了=.=ll )
14)有几个兄弟姐妹: ２个哥一个姐
15)最喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: 太多了~
16)喜欢什么颜色: rainbow colour
17)上厕所会不会冲水: 当然！
18)喜欢男还是女生: 通吃！
19)最想大大声说什么:当然是粗话啦！
20)半夜敢不敢上厕所: 我半夜没有尿的

21)你现在最恨谁: 人家的女儿
22)现在喜欢做什么: 吃喝玩乐
23)睡相好不好看: 我很有仪态的
24)现在的时间: 下午５点正！
25)是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人:我可以怎样？？　
26)体重多少: 45kg《肥了又瘦了》
27)今天天气:风很够力大！
28)如果忙完了你最想做什么: 还是吃喝玩乐
29)失眠后会怎样: 这样咯～我每天都失眠的反正
30)你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: 没有！！

31)你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: 不会
32)你有没有吃过夜宵: 宵夜是一定要吃的阿
33)近期开心的事: 不懂勒
34)自由对你来说重要吗: 当然重要！
35)你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: ERRRR。。。。。不懂勒
36)你觉得你比较笨还是聪明:聪明的来又有一点笨~
37)你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈:阿~~？姐姐可以吗？
38)你现在最想看到谁:某人
39)你爱看戏吗: 还好~
40)你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你"吗：做么不敢？我女王叻！

++附加问题++

你打算几时结婚啊: 我不婚主义
你喜欢你的生活吗: ok啦
相信塔罗牌吗: 没试过！不知道！
睡觉前所做的事情：啊。。听歌帮助睡眠
你的偶像:没有
你喜欢的季节: 春天
最想去的地方: 都可以
最讨厌怎样的性格的人: 耍手段的人
你会抽烟吗: 你觉得呢？
你会喝酒吗: 当然要的阿！
你常哭吗: 还好~
你常笑吗: 还好
想睡到几点: 自然醒
朋友和情人你会选谁: 要看我对他们的爱有多深~

机会+命运你会选谁: 机会
你很自恋吗: 不！
你有穿耳洞吗: 有
喜欢吃冰吗: 还好~
现在幸福吗: 过得去拉
最在乎谁:自己
房间里最重要的东西是什么: 电脑
没有朋友你会怎么做: 成为超级宅女！

如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: 我想得到什么就有什么
这个问题废吗:当然
喜欢那个水果:啊。。不懂
最怕人家问你什么: 都不怕！
喜欢下雪吗: 喜欢喜欢!!
下辈子要做什么: 做个男的
希望再被tag吗: 最好还是不要！打这么多字，很累==
你喜欢等人吗: 非常不喜欢！

1 。被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷
2 。请老实回答每一问题
3 。不能擅自涂改题目
4 。写完请点你的朋友，不可以不点
5 。完后请通知被点到的朋友

低调

大家都说我很坚强
什么都撑得住！
毕竟一路来我都以个人熬过来
你也说我很坚强
一定会撑得住
只是你们有谁知道
就算我再怎么坚强
我也只是一个女生
女王也有狼狈的一面
这句话说得讽刺
我笑我悲哀
我假装我很好
我假装我不在乎
我假装我不哭
我假装什么也没发生
我假装你还是我的
只是一觉醒来
还是要面对事实
假装让我好累好累
我也想这一刻
能有个肩膀靠一靠
就算什么也不说
也没关系
至少让我觉得
我不是一个人
至少我所坚持的
是值得的
----------------
我的悲伤是如此低调
因为不想打扰
我很好
很好
真的很好
我这次一定也能挺过来！

17/9/2009

我最好的朋友被伤了心
我从没看过她这副样子
我知道他很难过
我何尝不心疼呢？
最可悲的爱情
莫过于连解释的机会也没有
就被淘汰了
他们是远距离
超远
当初我真的没想到他是那么的认真
我想起我和他
有些事装着不在乎
但明明就很在乎
有些事很不真实
但事实上却是那么的真实
说好不在乎
但却要自己生闷气
我怎么这样！
SHORTY
每次都是你守在我身边保护我
这次换我来保护你！
爱你

not in gooood mood

心都凉去一半了～
原来你是这样的

R-r-r-r-rrr-recently

我不知道要写什么好～
可是其实我心里面有千言万语
真的是不是讲就讲的出来
写就写的出来的～
我只能说
我心脏不好
心脏要爆炸了～
心里面１００个惊讶的wtf
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
好我要继续发梦去～

09-09-09

人们都在和我说
09-09-09 有多浪漫
可是对于我的status
我觉得日子还是照过
地球依然在转
-------------------------
我现在还有在发梦的感觉
但是梦境是那么地真实
我应该要相信
还是不相信
我应该要相信然后被骗
还是不相信然后错过？
人总是矛盾的
虽然不真实的感觉依然没有减少到
可是至少让我这一刻是开心的
我甚至激动的有点胃痛
虽然如此
心是甜的
虽然不太真实的感觉
但依然是甜的
我今晚能睡个好觉，发个好梦

i heart U

i heart myself
i heart everyone that in my mind
i heart ...

you

you

and you~


xoxo

诚实不代表容许背叛

insomnia AGAIN~

今天又失眠了
忘了今天是失眠的第几天
其实我已经OK了
只是不知道为什么失眠
我想尽办法让自己开心
Msn和朋友聊天聊到我自己会笑
从心笑出来
只是我再也不回相信
这种开心是不是有点不真实？
我想，也许
今天一个人
我轻松了许多
好像好像把电话丢进马桶然后冲走
我本来就是喜欢一个人
有时候，
已经不是喜不喜欢的问题
而是习惯不习惯的问题
就像喝惯了咖啡
忽然要我喝牛奶
我适应不来
所以宁愿不改变
我真的没有表面上看得开心
我好像好像让自己开心起来
就像刚才那样从心笑出来的开心
看我想我应该先重新学会相信
又是失眠的晚上
我把我的心和笔记融为一体！
什么也不需要想的感觉～好好噢！

我很好
真的很好
一个人的感觉很好

我没有失忆

我没有失忆
我不是你们
睡醒一觉说忘就忘
那里风流快活后
转个头对女朋友甜言蜜语
我觉得你很恶心
你们很肮脏
请不要再对我说话
这几天心情反反复复
怎知道我快崩溃了
我真的很气
我想一刀把你们刺死
我试着让自己“当”没事发生
但是事情始终发生了
你们说
事情在那里开始
在那里结束
我说不可能！没有这回事
决定权不在于你们
不是你们要我怎样我就怎样
而是我要怎样，你们就得怎样
我说其实男人都是狗
绝种好男人和世纪贱男其实只是一线之差
好男人是狼狗
比较听话
花花公子就像西施狗
除了吃喝玩乐还懂什么？
贱男？像你们这样的就是流浪狗咯！
什么狗屎垃圾你们都要
别人丑一点肥一点样子不那么出众
你们就说人家恶心
别人像鸡，像垃圾一样低贱
你们为什么不觉得恶心？
我一直认为男人比女人贱
但是原来差不多一样level jek~
老娘当没事
不代表原谅你们
我没有失忆！

never ever AGAIN

我才发现
原谅你
我过不了自己那关

wat tittle should i put?

I am really no idea w wat title should i put! As~ there is sooooo fcking many things running thru my little tiny silly brain!Should i blame the caffein for make me being so silly? I m tired indeeeeed! apparently i should take a good rest! But still, i m sitting in front of my study table to continue the stupid fking microeconomic 's revision! I do hate the stupid pakis lec! his slang,his attitude his pattern! Giv me some * to calm me down plssss~ I wish i m blind so that i no need to c ur selfish face! it enough! tooo over for me ! i cant stand! and the "bin gor bin gor"~ its time to stop all ur bullshit~stop talking cock~ dont u remember i dont love u no more?its over ~ n i m here to tell u ,get the fucking out of my way! thanks for ur co-operation!

pek cek__________________________________________-------

why we study for exam?

如题～
老实说我真的不明白
读到要生要死
可是又不知道考试会出怎样的题目怎样的方式
读到要生要死
还要担心读的会不会出
或者
读不读的完
或者
会不会一进考场
整个忘光光
读了等于没有读
还要浪费时间熬夜
那时心里除了niama　就剩下wtf了
不过既然是这样
那为什么还要准备
因为如果好彩的话读的都有出
那时你的心情就会好过中4d头奖
不过这个几率就像要中4d头奖一样难
所以我还是带着矛盾的心情准备考试好
不然万一像4d这样
不买的时候开个正字一样～
哭都没有眼泪！

Im in fire

U r jerk ~ jerk ~ jerk~ jerk~ jerkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!
The most unlucky thing in my life is i know u
U r the worst Tb that i ever seen~ THE WORST one~
KANNINAH fuck off ~ Dont think that u are everything!
C****

我是阿飘

话说这几天精神恍惚
整个人飘下漂下
飘到了星期二
我才忽然发觉我似乎飘太久了
现在是星期三的凌晨4点40分
其实是累的咯我
可是我不能怨人
因为我从回来
就粘在椅子上
我的屁股自然分泌super glue我想
我拖到一点才信步感情不愿的冲凉去
然后才粘在椅子上
继续我那很傻嗨的flash game
到刚才大约两三点
我才心不甘情不愿的读书去
读marketing去
本来成绩我就没有很好
脑袋也没有很大
却要装下这些不知所谓的marketing theory
我不知道自己读什么老实那句
读又死，不读死无全尸
所以我选择死的明明白白
如果我读我不信我拿0
可是往往这些事是可能发生的
哈哈哈哈脑小自然没那么聪明
真是wtf
其实我心里面还有100个心不甘情不愿
再外加100个wtf
虽然宵夜吃很饱
可是心中的100 个心不甘情不愿
还有那100个wtf
还是久久不能减少！　
没办法我喜欢晚上做啊飘
这些就是老人家每次说的
《自己拿来贱》

Upgrading--- - - - -

the Queen S is in the Upgrading mode! system tht inside my body is already expired and outdated ! this make me cannot affort too much of works and stress! this make me still stand in the same step!thts y! *so~ S is trying to has a revolution by herself! * The upgrading mode is ON!! i m full with energy and motivate right now! try harder n harder to do better from the bad 1~ do better n better~ ~~~ * will be non-stopping upgrading~* XOXO

11 august 2009

now is 2.24 am of 11 august 2009! i was doing nothing the whole day * should b yesterday* Dont ask me why! as i m just ~ dont have any motivation or energy or mood to do any thing! i m wondering wat i m thinking right now ~*please tell me ,god* Midterm test on Fri and one more is on next thursday!! I m ready to prepare for it but i m just not in mood! *seriously wtf* frankly to be, i m still in holiday mood! i wish that i at my home now~ so that i can just stay at home and just sleep, eat and relax ~ i hate the crowded place but it doesnt means i m scare of the H1N1~ i m jst kinda ~ anti social~ i feel sick to the crowded place * i m a weirdo * I miss my papa mama n my lovely friends ~ one week holiday is toooooo short * shouting*

I DO

wat i wanna say is just this much~ If u ask me do i love my parents? Sure i will answer u , I DO~ but not in the ordinary way! as we get along in kinda of special way! We seldom talk..I will feel shy when i talk w my dad~ do u believe that? i will feel shy when i ask for pocketmoney from my dad or when my dad is giving me the pocket money! i dont even dare to look into his eyes ..do u believe this? yea~ no doubt! i do! compare w my dad, i talk more w my mom..But we quarrel almost the time when we get along! Apparently we r not in a great relationship..do u think so?But in fact , i do love them but no ones know..i keep the love inside the deepest of my heart..when i Miss them and wish to give them a hug , i will never let them know. i dare not to let them know..Sometimes i hate them. my dad never know wat i m thinking bout..all my mom know is just complaining and comparing~ its so lame!But sometimes i love them ..is it contradictory?I love them because ~ my dad is willing to do everything for me ~ my mom is always worrying bout me ~ why? because she care about me! i should happy for this maybe! they will never let me to take bus when i want to go back to hometown or go back to campus..they NEVER~ because they worry about me they care about me ..they drive me home everytime when i m going back! Do ur parents do that for u? My dad does~My mama prepare delicious food for me when i m home~ my mom doesnt eat salty and sweety things~ But! she does it because of me ! She brings me for supper when i m home although she doesnt has the habit to take supper..She does it because i love supper much! My dad buys me supper when i say i want to eat! He straight aways drive out and buy me the supper! My dad does it for me ! how about ur dad?Eventhough sometimes they love and care my brothers more than me! But..they is actually love and care me tooo~ I shouldnt blaming anythings ! i should appreciate ~ i would like to say tht i do love them ! i heart them~ thanks daddi n mami

YOU

YOU r selfish indeed~Dont try to act infront of me! i know everything! And i know U well~~~~Be humble and not to be so selfish!

Last weeeeek

YEAaaa~ here i m~~ Last weeeeek ,we saw an accident while we are on our way back to home....the car badly damaged~n my boy and his cousin so busybody..stop the car by the roadside immediately ..wat de....

The Gossssip boy ^^

This is the car,the driver is a ahpek

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SAT

nothing much to talk about sat as my saturday become a very boring day since no more clubbing life.So i go jonker for dinner w my boy..the sushi is sooo cheap but nice toooo n the asam laksa...my boy love it as he say the asam laksa is sweeet...>< ~~

he love the tau hu kia~~~he call it as tau hu kia

the yummmy yummy tau hu kia

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FRI

We went to ALAI for seafood!this is a " family trip " again~We went there by YK 's Frontier!!!! yeeeepy~ ~ i ate 3nasi lemak ..pls forgive me i m just tooo hungry haha...i love the kangkung and the fish ~~

cccccccccccc~ my bq roomate w xiaolong

every1 enjoy the seafoooood

tht's my weeeekend ,maybe its damn bored for those who go club oftenly~But for me ,i do enjoy it!!

i say FUCK U PPS

Can u just stop pps? U keep pps everyday~ every afternoon~ every night~ everytime when u r at home ! I didnt really care about it if it doesnt affect our line.But wat's happened now is everytime u pps we are unable to online~ keep drop line~ or need to wait for long long time to load the page! Everytime when i need to surf net ~ sure this will happen! wat the fucking hell!! why u are so free? No tutorials?no class? no assignment? no test? no others things to do? Im not blaming U~ i m just blamming to stupid fking pps creater!

I changed my life style~ how bout u?

yea~ no doubt,my friends,my buddies~ i did changed my life style ~ since the start of this new trimester~ there was many causes and it will be the secret tat all of u will never know~ But~anyway,this is a good start good change, aint it? * sob sob* this is wat my beloved roomate told me tht day ~ yea! thats not the way to solve the problem..so i decide to change my life style ~n now i stay at my room everyday,attend all my classes,do all my tutorials,try my best to complete my assignments. its stress yet i enjoy it~its tiring,but i feel tht my life have not wasted..every minutes tht i used is for useful things but not nonsense. I only let myself to enjoy during weekend~ thts the way~ ! Nevermind! i can drink until kena stroke after my final exam, i can play until out of energy after the exam ~keep on fighting !!here 's some photos to share... study life can be nice too~

My bQ roomate YT

Our "beloved" classmate~ reali cant judge the book by its cover

Gotcha!!HLzai

Yea~

My bak qi darling said this is the reason y we attend all our classes

-END-XOXO

The Fking Family Drama

i was homesick . no doubt~ i reali mean it.. i miss my hometown friends,miss my parents, my second elder brother...last but not least...my dearest sister and her cuttie baby..I m going back my Jb home on this coming Fri....many things come thru my mind right now.. i m so happy and excited to spend my weekend w my family~*yuuhuuuu* sounds great..I do love my family...But...at the same times..i feel fed up to go home..As i knw i will meet w the fking bloody cb po ~the fking bloody cb po is my elder brother 's wife ~ p/s: she is my brother 's wife...but dont call her as my sister in law.. This fking woman is more evil than bitchy s..her level is master level d..Why i said so? this fking women make my family mess in those bloody family drama...Serious family drama ...which drive me crazy...my parents quarrel w my sis ..and the most serious is ...this fking asshole make my sister get hypochondria.. and my sis get serious n serious now. How come she can do this ?How her mom teach her? Y? y ? Y? There is so many question marks in my mind ~ Eventhough it past d ~but doesnt means than we will forgive and forget~ This bloody fool even scolded my parents and called her mom to phone my mom last time ..She is toooo over ..She doesnt let my brother come over to visit my parents...She even want my brother to switch on the loud speaker when hving tea w my parents..I will never forgive wat she 've done to my family..and my sister ..Maybe~ Maybe i shouldnt blame her ..maybe i should blame my useless brother .why he married w this kind of women. How come he can b so uselessssss.nope..is super fucking useless...We are 1 family,she is still an outsider even she married w u! How come u can let ur fatty brainless wife to bully u own sister again again..and again~~~ where 's ur heart? where 's ur brain! why huh? u can still accept her as ur wife no matter how she done..no matter how she bully ur family? is it because of ur son..thts y u stand for her .. why not u just divorce? u can have 1,2,3,4, or 5 gfs after this...or ..uncountable gfs...R u a man! Come on! stand out for ur family ..for urself! actually, its doesnt matter if this bitch jst bully u..But now ..she make our family bcm like tht...make ur sister bcm this ! Dont blame us for being so cruel..Blame urself for bein so uselesss..If this type of drama happen again..pls dont involve my sister and i into it~Dont ever try to hurt us! dont ever try to do somethings to hurt my sis...U hurt my sister again...pls dont blame me~I will hurt ur son and let u feel it. If u really so boring and want to c our family drama again? Fine... i will deal w u . beware ! or not ..one day, i will make u in hypochondria..jst like wat u done to us

贱人你最好是给我看！

拼命的踩低别人来抬到自己
这样有很高级吗？
你拼命的爆别人的隐私来得到别人对你的认可
这样很有成就感吗？
怎样？别人的东西有很好用没？
你怎么那么爱跟阿你~
你平时狗
也就算了
你现在这样对我
你最好给我好好想我会怎么对付你
没办法
好好一个人你不好好做
是要惹毛我
还一副得意的样子
但是我相信你并非一无是处
你还有一个用途
您的体味可以医治半身不遂的人哦
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈啊哈啊哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

再见萧爸爸

那天我们去了一个好朋友爸爸的丧礼
第一次去的时候是我们一班朋友去麻坡吃晚餐后
第二次去的就是这次的丧礼
他看似很坚强
但是我们都知道发生事情时他崩溃了
他一面和我们谈
一面望着萧爸爸的灵照
一面说一面流眼泪
平时他最MAN了
我们听了也觉得心酸
最后我选择不望不听
萧妈妈一连幸福的和我们说他和萧爸爸的事
她笑笑的
可是我们都看见他的泪水在眼里打滚
萧妈妈很坚强
希望萧爸爸一路走好
萧妈妈和家人平平安安
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
有时候不是善有善报的
政府医院～
很多听了都会笑
原因大家很清楚
萧爸爸生前一直做善事
定时到医院捐血
还会自己掏腰包帮助有需要的人
而且不是小数目
到他自己本身发生事情了
他也很坚持的要去那间医院
结果换来的是这样
如果他们效率好一点
手脚快一点
有点医德
是不是会有的救？
他的家人拼了命也要让他好起来
可是却换来医生什么也没做就不停的告诉萧家可以准备身后事了
那时萧爸爸情况稳定了脸色好看了
医生什么也不做
还是那一句
可以准备身后事了
他们家留了９－１０个号码
要院方在萧爸爸有什么变化什么事时
第一时间打给他们
可是第二天他们去医院时
萧爸爸已经没有心跳了
当他们问那个护士时
那个护士竟然说
啊？是吗？
＊萧爸爸住的是ＩＣＵ，一间病房一个护士＊
所以
我说
那间医院效率还真的没话说


萧爸爸
你是萧家的天使
一路走好

ehem~~

i just want to say tht~ Dont judge the book from the cover of the book! This is wat happen on me! i do like to judge ppl from the first sight. i admit tht i really dont like her since our first met. we dont even talked to each other. whenever she talked.. whatever she suggested , we just simply ignored her! Yea~ as she was so annoying.But until tht day,she text me~* suprising* we chat~and i found tht...we were misunderstood her, we dont really knw the whole story b4 this.we jst listened to the another ppl~ we nvr listened to wat she told..and nw we are friend~ yea~But sometimes i was still confusing about this...as all of this was so dramatic..is this wat she told us was fact? or she just acting around us? its still a answer that i nvr knw~

我又想起你

我以为我已经很潇洒的放下了
我以为我已经很潇洒的忘了
我以为我已经很潇洒的和别人聊起我们之前的一切一切
我笑得多么的开心呢
我笑因为你让我终于得到了个解脱
我笑因为你让我长大了不少不少
我以为我们还能像以前一样当朋友
但原来已经不能
我以为我已经不在乎
但原来不是
想起你的时候
我依然会低落伤心
你的点点滴滴你的味道我都没忘记过
算了反正我也只是你的游戏
反正你也不曾在乎过

有时候有时候

这几天开始上课了
貌似我上大一好几个月了
但我这几天才有那种感觉
也许是以前我都 一个人
所以都没有什么特别的感觉
别人问起我
我都说还好
别人说会计系是不是很难
我也都说还好
不知道是不是因为这几天都很有想冲得感觉
我忽然觉得原来不是我想象中的简单
开始有一种无形的压力形成
看见以前中学的学妹
让我觉得真是岁月不饶人
时间过得还真是快
可是我很象什么也没做到
到现在还颓废着
还堕落着～
还没熬出什么好东西来
我想下想下
我还真的每天只在想着吃喝玩乐
除此之外我还真的什么也没做
我这人做到也几潇洒一二三四五六七八百下
不过话说潇洒是要付出代价的
你以为人家我很想那么潇洒么
这也只是我唯一能安慰自己的理由
就让我逗逗自己嘛
就如小叶妹妹说的
潇洒是爱面子的人说的
我还真的用了不少时间才觉悟
有点迟可是没办法
所以我要更努力的向上冲
我现在才想到和多东西
未来不是垂手可获得
要自己争取的不是么
唉~
飞了个发
换了个LOOK
人果然醒过来
早知道我早就去飞发～
各位加油…………
小小的压力是向上冲得动力

i miss her ..in a sudden~

erhem...i dont know since when .......i already forgot about this person..dont know since when..she lost from my life..dont know since when..she 's no more a part of me..i truely loved this girl even i know i will never get back the love that i gave her and i never regret about this as we had a wonderful day..wonderful date before..eventhough the time was short enuf. i still remember the first time we met. we were so close..face to face ..I was so willing to do everything that time ..eventhough i know i can only get part of u ..m i silly? i think so.. but love was blind. aint it?i had deleted all her photo from my cellphone since the day we have a talk. i knew we will nvr get back to the day ..before all of this happened..we knew ..we had our own partner..we knew..we cant betrayed them AGAIN..* haixxx* One day..i just viewing around my phone photo..and i get this ..ur rainbow color converse ..i knew u love somethings special ..thts y u had ur eyes on me tht time..as u felt challeging to get a girl like me ..mayb its just all about game from the start..but i never tot tht i would had this strong ,deep heart feeling on u..u made me blind .but very sad to say tht...u never felt hw much tat i love u ..em...just now i went for a movie ..suddenly ..i smell something...somethings familiar..mmm a nice smell~~but i still cant remember wat smell is tht..until i went to mcd after my mv..ops..the smell again...wth~ * fu* then ...i think and think and think and think..........finally i got d answer..thts ur perfume 's smell...omfg..i love tht smell..it brought me back to the time ..its a special smell.. and i do miss it..nw..i dont know whether u are fine w her or not ..i dont know whether will u think of me ...once in a while or not ..i dont know whether did u ever loved me before or not ..i dont need all these answer...cz at least u gave me a memorable memories...u gave me some sweet memories ..not only the bad one ..at least i was happy that time ..its all enuf d ..and u do make me grow up ..u make me tough..u make me be strong ..i learned many things from u ..i do loved u before..u are the only girl that i love the most..i m willing to change for u ..willing to do everythings for u ..but this is before....and these will all be the sentences that u never know ..as u dont know how much i loved u b4 ..thank u for everything..we should appreciate wat we hav ..mayb~

i miss the owner of the shoes...in a sudden~

Oooooooooo

ehem~there are so many things come thru my mind right now .. i have to worry bout so mny things..and i dont knw wat should i do now..i just want a easy happy life....

regretful~

from the title above...i think all of u can knw tht how regret m i ~~yea~~~~~i keep thinking bout this whole afternoon ...haix....i do this almost everytime when my result release...if i knw ....bla bla bla....sure i will....bla bla bla~~~~ but it past d ..aint it ~ ?life is still going on...* deeep sigh* nothing to do w ..nothing to deal w...but wat i can say is only ...i will do it better nx time ..~~ this sentence i repeat n repeat many times d ..but i still cnt~ wtf goin on w me? i dunno ...i think only god will knw ~my dear mr jesus...my lovely guan yin ma...blessss me pls~~ let me b a lucky ppl~~bad luck stay away frm me ...if u bless me ..i promise i will go to church every sunday...i promise i will be a vegetarian every 1st and 15th of the month...~~ deal??

RECEntly

*deeeeeep deeeep sigh*
recently...thr's too many things had happened..i was so fed up w all of this....My family 's drama make me sick~ my so- called sister-in law..make me fucked up~ and my papa make me sad~
All of this were just because her...---> my so-called sister -in-law~~~ *Fuck her* she make all this family 's drama...but finally my sister who got scolded by my parents...THis bitch and my parents drive my sis crazy~ and ..my sis mentally break down ..because of wat they had done to her~i was so fucked up but i cant do anything~ as i m nothing in my family~ and my bro ..i wan to tell him this....damn u ..since u married w this bitch ..our family get messs~ all the family's dramas were done by her~ supposed,u and ur wife had to clean this shit~BUT..u and yr wife was just pretending nothing happen..sit thr...enjoying ur time w ur baby...do u ever think abt her? ur sis~?she cried everyday ~ seriously mental break down..erhem~ n my parents still think tht's my sista's fault~ ok fine...i hv nothing to talk w ur all d since u all are so cruel to ur own daughter /sis~ * deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep deep sigh again* result release tmr..Fck~ i m so nervous..GOD BLESS me

that is wat they call FAMILY~

eherm~sometimes i was wondering ...why they had a weird relationship w their family?~ Parents are the one who take care bout us ..send us to school .let us further our studies to the college or university~give us the best one as they can~love us care us the most!When their children graduate, have a stabil life&high salary job earn lots of money , they will let their parents enjoy life,right? But in some family ..they all totally different w wat i said! *full w questions marks* 'Someone" 's family ...i saw some weird cases~ their children have stabil life ,drive nice car, wallet full w credit card ,master card ,bank card...have a big big house ...buy lots of expensive things for their girlfriends/boyfriend...husband/wife...take their partner to a trip~ sounds rich ,aint them? but sad to say tht...their parents still hv to work very very hard .but earn a lil bit only..sometimes it might b difficult for them to buy a expensive stuff..i think they cant afford to go for a trip in oversea too. WTF? their children so rich ..but their parents so....=="Z sounds crazy right? But this is the fact! their children buy expensive stuff , branded stuff for their partner,but never buy it for their parents...take their partner to trip ..at thailand,singapore,hong kong ...here n thr..but even never bring their parents to port dickson ~ * super duper deep sigh* as ...my bro bring his family to vacation ..but din even bring along my parents .. this who so called children ...always said ..how they love their parents....usually they will said ...i love my parents so much!!!! but frankly to be....ask urself...when u buy a diamond ring for ur partner ,do u buy 1 for u lovely mama toooooo???FUCK u...the answer will always be 'NO"~all this ppl are fucking dick head!But..parents are always dont knw how to differentiate good child and bad child~*super duper deep deep sigh again* they are also some parents that nvr take care of their children ..just throw their children to grandma..come back twice a month..never care wat their children need..wat their children's homework~~ this n tht~~this is wat we call responsibility of parents?DAMN! its so irresponsible~ My boy told me ..sometimes reality is really different w what we think we wan to do~ I m here to tell everyone ..the first thing i will do when i have my stabil life ,stabil job ,i will let my parents to enjoy their life...bring my parents to vacation but not my partner~ as they are my precious 1~ they are the ppl who bring me here~for those fuckin dick head ~ ehem~~ do u think that wat u 've done are wat we call family?? *innocent smile* Let S tell u ! u do this , nx time ..ur children wil do the same thing tooo~~ dont ruin the nx generation ~ family shouldnt be like tht! parents take care of children..children take care of parents when they hv a sucessful career..stabil income....this is only we call family !!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want to make a complain bout u , sir~

Dear sir,

I felt fucked up sometimes ..as all the things that u had to do previously, now my turn to do it for u~?erhem~~i m in a relationship and having life like cohabitation w u only.Doesn;t mean that i already married to u and be 1 of ur family ! I helped u to take care ur grandma when u going to futsal..helped u in shop while u all were busying..still, i need to entertain ur good sis and cousin while i'm totally fed up of them..i have to endure while they are talking bad behind me . and for sure , u never defence for me ~i was wondering wat kind of bf u are smtimes.But then ,i found that i got nothing but scolded by u if i showed up my face~Frankly to be, ur family are not mine..Tht's ur family!Actually i dont need no endure all of this!i treat them good ..i wish tht they do the same things to me too.! Please appreciate me ! i have no responsibility to be good to your family ,But i did it too..as u r my bf!

LOVE letter

*wink*
Yesterday i wrote a love letter for my boy! Our first love letter..since we had maintained our relationship for 1 year and 3 months ~ i m perceptual too..sometimes~it's not easy for me to maintain a relationship for this long as i m not a loyal lover~i can be crush on several people in the same time.Mayb u can say that i m immatural in another way! yup~ i admit.i wrote a love letter and then i folded it in a love shape ~ after tht i put in his wallet secretly while he was playing futsal! but this dumb didnt notice that his wallet got this thing! herm...he 's so stupid! Then i hinted him to check the money .after he found out that a love shape paper in his wallet ..he jz said ..eih? ....==he 's damn not romantic at all..at last ..i had to be forced to tell him that's written someting inside that paper! its not a surprise d ..but at least he felt touch of my words~I m lucky to have him.as he 's the only one who will care me , love me ,protect me , be with me whatever i happened ~ xoxo

mammi and babe shenyong lob u (",)

i m seriously ADDICTED in u

uh hem~~

this ms. S 's time

i m addicted in snooker and pool recently..MAYBE i shouldnt say recently as i already addicted in it long time ago .i think since half year ago?Y i addicted in ths game? Dont ask me ..should blame my boy !! He likes to hang out w his friend to snooker center..Starting ,i was so damnn dislike that .I hate this stupid game. I really dont know why they love it so much~ BUT! i hate loneliness more~ everytime when they were enjoying their game ..i was jz look here n thr . This happened before my boy bought me a PSP.BUT ...still i feel boring~ One day ..even myself also dont knw wat's wrong w me ..i asked my boy to teach me hw to play this ~uh uh~ once i play .. i was totally love it~Tht time ..i was jz playing pool..as it's small n easier for ppl like me ..*T.T* i m short! Then..everything change ...since his cousin teach him hw to play snooker and lucky! No one willing to play pool w me d~So ..hw?~ntg to do w~ i hv no choice .. i start to play snooker~ once i start~ i cant stop it~and now...we play snooker almost everyday ! sounds bored right?but trust me once ..even the thing i tell never can b trusted~if u try to play this game..u will love it too~~ just like me ~i m so soooooory to say tht i hate snooker and pool last time~ nw ..even my psp also have snooker and pool game~ i m in love w u ~ snooker hiak hiak hiak ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

uh hem~

goodbye old writing style
HELLO new writing style

a New blog..again

Phew~
finally i start blogging again .i stopped blogging last time as my bf checked my blog.. U knw~? girl like me ...so bitchy...sure gt many secret tht cannot let my boy know ..SO..i deleted all my previous article ..and start a new blog here...i tried blogbus and wretch...so now 's blogspot 's turn..hiak hiak hiak~today is my first day for final exam...but all i hv now ..is holidy mode..wth..>< after this,i m goin to move out frm this knn unit to stay w my beloved dar yt. dar i m so excited to stay w u ..so tht i can dinner ,lunch,slp,talk, to u..anytime..kakakakaka~we can hang out until morning AGAIN~cant wait d~ hmm.. i am so surprising when one of my junior told me she 's a lesbian...omFg ..hw cm i nvr notice this b4?is it we hv been a while din meet up d?If i knw it earlier....sure i will..........hiak hiak hiak .....................imagine urself ...lalala