我又想起你

我以为我已经很潇洒的放下了
我以为我已经很潇洒的忘了
我以为我已经很潇洒的和别人聊起我们之前的一切一切
我笑得多么的开心呢
我笑因为你让我终于得到了个解脱
我笑因为你让我长大了不少不少
我以为我们还能像以前一样当朋友
但原来已经不能
我以为我已经不在乎
但原来不是
想起你的时候
我依然会低落伤心
你的点点滴滴你的味道我都没忘记过
算了反正我也只是你的游戏
反正你也不曾在乎过

有时候有时候

这几天开始上课了
貌似我上大一好几个月了
但我这几天才有那种感觉
也许是以前我都 一个人
所以都没有什么特别的感觉
别人问起我
我都说还好
别人说会计系是不是很难
我也都说还好
不知道是不是因为这几天都很有想冲得感觉
我忽然觉得原来不是我想象中的简单
开始有一种无形的压力形成
看见以前中学的学妹
让我觉得真是岁月不饶人
时间过得还真是快
可是我很象什么也没做到
到现在还颓废着
还堕落着～
还没熬出什么好东西来
我想下想下
我还真的每天只在想着吃喝玩乐
除此之外我还真的什么也没做
我这人做到也几潇洒一二三四五六七八百下
不过话说潇洒是要付出代价的
你以为人家我很想那么潇洒么
这也只是我唯一能安慰自己的理由
就让我逗逗自己嘛
就如小叶妹妹说的
潇洒是爱面子的人说的
我还真的用了不少时间才觉悟
有点迟可是没办法
所以我要更努力的向上冲
我现在才想到和多东西
未来不是垂手可获得
要自己争取的不是么
唉~
飞了个发
换了个LOOK
人果然醒过来
早知道我早就去飞发～
各位加油…………
小小的压力是向上冲得动力

i miss her ..in a sudden~

erhem...i dont know since when .......i already forgot about this person..dont know since when..she lost from my life..dont know since when..she 's no more a part of me..i truely loved this girl even i know i will never get back the love that i gave her and i never regret about this as we had a wonderful day..wonderful date before..eventhough the time was short enuf. i still remember the first time we met. we were so close..face to face ..I was so willing to do everything that time ..eventhough i know i can only get part of u ..m i silly? i think so.. but love was blind. aint it?i had deleted all her photo from my cellphone since the day we have a talk. i knew we will nvr get back to the day ..before all of this happened..we knew ..we had our own partner..we knew..we cant betrayed them AGAIN..* haixxx* One day..i just viewing around my phone photo..and i get this ..ur rainbow color converse ..i knew u love somethings special ..thts y u had ur eyes on me tht time..as u felt challeging to get a girl like me ..mayb its just all about game from the start..but i never tot tht i would had this strong ,deep heart feeling on u..u made me blind .but very sad to say tht...u never felt hw much tat i love u ..em...just now i went for a movie ..suddenly ..i smell something...somethings familiar..mmm a nice smell~~but i still cant remember wat smell is tht..until i went to mcd after my mv..ops..the smell again...wth~ * fu* then ...i think and think and think and think..........finally i got d answer..thts ur perfume 's smell...omfg..i love tht smell..it brought me back to the time ..its a special smell.. and i do miss it..nw..i dont know whether u are fine w her or not ..i dont know whether will u think of me ...once in a while or not ..i dont know whether did u ever loved me before or not ..i dont need all these answer...cz at least u gave me a memorable memories...u gave me some sweet memories ..not only the bad one ..at least i was happy that time ..its all enuf d ..and u do make me grow up ..u make me tough..u make me be strong ..i learned many things from u ..i do loved u before..u are the only girl that i love the most..i m willing to change for u ..willing to do everythings for u ..but this is before....and these will all be the sentences that u never know ..as u dont know how much i loved u b4 ..thank u for everything..we should appreciate wat we hav ..mayb~

i miss the owner of the shoes...in a sudden~

Oooooooooo

ehem~there are so many things come thru my mind right now .. i have to worry bout so mny things..and i dont knw wat should i do now..i just want a easy happy life....

regretful~

from the title above...i think all of u can knw tht how regret m i ~~yea~~~~~i keep thinking bout this whole afternoon ...haix....i do this almost everytime when my result release...if i knw ....bla bla bla....sure i will....bla bla bla~~~~ but it past d ..aint it ~ ?life is still going on...* deeep sigh* nothing to do w ..nothing to deal w...but wat i can say is only ...i will do it better nx time ..~~ this sentence i repeat n repeat many times d ..but i still cnt~ wtf goin on w me? i dunno ...i think only god will knw ~my dear mr jesus...my lovely guan yin ma...blessss me pls~~ let me b a lucky ppl~~bad luck stay away frm me ...if u bless me ..i promise i will go to church every sunday...i promise i will be a vegetarian every 1st and 15th of the month...~~ deal??

RECEntly

*deeeeeep deeeep sigh*
recently...thr's too many things had happened..i was so fed up w all of this....My family 's drama make me sick~ my so- called sister-in law..make me fucked up~ and my papa make me sad~
All of this were just because her...---> my so-called sister -in-law~~~ *Fuck her* she make all this family 's drama...but finally my sister who got scolded by my parents...THis bitch and my parents drive my sis crazy~ and ..my sis mentally break down ..because of wat they had done to her~i was so fucked up but i cant do anything~ as i m nothing in my family~ and my bro ..i wan to tell him this....damn u ..since u married w this bitch ..our family get messs~ all the family's dramas were done by her~ supposed,u and ur wife had to clean this shit~BUT..u and yr wife was just pretending nothing happen..sit thr...enjoying ur time w ur baby...do u ever think abt her? ur sis~?she cried everyday ~ seriously mental break down..erhem~ n my parents still think tht's my sista's fault~ ok fine...i hv nothing to talk w ur all d since u all are so cruel to ur own daughter /sis~ * deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep deep sigh again* result release tmr..Fck~ i m so nervous..GOD BLESS me